May 2013
31 posts
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Rant: My thoughts today...
My past will always haunt me. I will never be good enough and I will live each day having it thrown in my face. I will never be wanted or needed in any way. I’m not ready for everything to change. I don’t want everything to go wrong. I’m going to screw everything up. I will never do anything right. I will hurt everyone without trying. I’ll ruin everything and I won’t...
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Trust...
It can be so simple. For me, its when you drive and I sit in the passenger seat and look out the side window the whole time or close my eyes. Im not worried about the road at all because I trust you with my life.
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Rant: I'll never be happy...
I think I can officially say that I will never truly be happy. I touched on this last week when I figured out that I’m not here for myself in anyway. I know that now for sure. I know it has to be true. I started to hope for something and got caught up in it, like I do all the time, and it totally blew up like I knew it would. I was just stupid enough to fall for it again. I set myself up for...
Sometimes, I just feel like a waste of space.
breathe-your-smoke-into-my-lungs:
Like the way I’m living my life isn’t the “right” way or even a “good” way at all. That I just go on day to day trying my hardest but never succeeding. In love, in happiness, in friendship. I give and give but recieve nothing. Why do I even keep trying? I don’t even know.
What is Life's Purpose?
you-tranquilize-me:
Sometimes life constricts its tail around me so hard that I can’t breathe. I just wish to die, so that the pain will go away… But how would that affect the people around me? When we read tales such as Romeo and Juliet, we wonder how the world could be so cruel, but that’s just how the world revolves. The world, honestly, doesn’t give two-shits about how your life will turn...
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Can we just go one day without someone saying...
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I can't take this anymore. I wish I could just be...
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I honestly dont understand why I try. Nobody...
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Is it bad to wish for something that you know will...
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Rant: Today I think I found the purpose of my...
I always wondered what in the world I was put on this earth for. It wasn’t to be a doctor, a writer, or anything amazing. I wasn’t put on this earth to do anything for myself. As sad as it sounds, I’m not here for myself. I’m not special. I’m here and thats it. I do think there is one reason though. I think I’m here for everyone else until they don’t need me. I try my best to do what I can for...
April 2013
27 posts
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I don't understand why I keep trying.
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Confession:
I turn music on before I go to bed because I can’t stand the sound of myself breathing.
Piss me off today and I'll break your face 'till...
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I just keep torturing myself and I don't know why.
I don't know if I'm starting to feel better, or...
